Peonies

Until a few years ago I didn’t know the names of most flowers. 

Roses, okay, sure. Daisies, tulips, but that’s about it. I would see flowers and like them, but didn’t feel any particular curiosity about what they were called. It worked the other way too. If I came upon a type of flower in a book or poem, Wordsworth’s daffodils, for example, or D. H. Lawrence’s Bavarian Gentians, I could only hold a vague, flowerish picture in my head.  

This all changed six years ago when we moved into our new-old house. The yard was overrun with plants we couldn’t identify. Also, the house was overrun with stuff we couldn’t identify. Wooden sculptures nailed to the walls. Glitter mixed with the orange ceiling paint. The giant Gatsby-like eyeball decals pasted to the dining room wall. But this is another story. That summer we focused on the house and left the yard for later. 

Later, turned out to be the first scary, bewildering months of the pandemic. Project one was to pull out the jungle of bamboo. Bamboo, I could recognize. Next, came the mass of wild grass. One day I crawled through it and had the shock of my life: a crazy woman on hands and knees coming straight at me. 

Ha ha no, that was a mirror and the crazy woman was me. Why was there a large mirror propped up in the center of a thicket of wild grass? Who knows. But then, why had the doorknobs on all the doors been replaced with water faucets and why was there a prison door on the patio and why were we in the middle of a global pandemic, the president advising us to drink bleach? But back to the flowers. 

After the bamboo came out and the wild grass, I was starting to get somewhere with my flower identification. This was summer 2020, and I was aiming the plant app on my phone at everything remaining. Those orange things were day lilies. The yellow stuff was Black-eyed Susan. The purple was coneflower. A delicate blue with spokes shooting out of it was called Love in the Mist.   

When the library opened its curbside delivery service, I ordered a bunch of plant books and painstakingly mapped out the yard on graph paper. The yarrow. The blazing star. The crocosmia with its feathery petals that looked like flames. And the peonies.

Let me tell you about the peonies. It’s a spring flower so I missed it completely in 2020, but the next year I noticed the big blooms behind the garage. This is a part of the yard that I didn’t know was our property so I had never seen the flowers back there. By the time I found them, they were flopped over, smushed on the neighbor’s driveway. I dug up part of the plant and replanted it in a place where we could see it, and now every spring, it’s my favorite flower to watch bloom.

First, a tight pink bud, and then an unfurling, a poof, and it’s a full-blown flower, too heavy to stay upright. There’s the inevitable flop over and a shedding of all of the petals, this entire process only taking a week? two weeks at most, and then it’s back to being an ordinary bush until next spring. Which is such a shame, the quickness of it, the loss. 

This year I decided to do what I could to slow things down. Can you slow things down? Maybe not, but I’ve been clipping several of the stems at the tight pink bud stage and putting them in jars around the house. I wish you could smell how sweet it is as the buds open, see the loveliness of the blooms. I put a vase in the guest room for our daughter, who is visiting for the weekend. 

Oh! she said, when she saw it. What is this? A peony, I told her. And like magic, we keep seeing them. A farmer selling bouquets at the farmers market and on our walks with the dog. Bushes on the edges of front lawns, the flowers brushing the sidewalk. 

We've been talking about other times she’s visited, when we first bought this wacky old house (that she begged us not to buy because it needed so much work) and later, during the pandemic, when she was in our bubble, the days we jumped on shovels together, tugging out bamboo roots. It feels like yesterday, it feels like today. The time with her, 

it goes too fast. But right this moment, she is here and I am taking her in. This morning before she wakes up, I tuck a fresh peony into the vase for one more day of frothiness and delight.